ok, so i think i might have a problem. last week i got really really sick. my friend told me it was because of the painkillers, muscle relaxers, and riddilin i had been using. it was bad, so i told myself id stop. and i did, but i cant stop thinking about them. whenever i sit at my desk i just wanrt to crush them up and take lines of them....i havnt done it yet, but i feel like im gong to break soon.
today wasnt really a good day...i suppose it was an average day. i threw snowballs at peoples windows, and played video games....i feel like my 2 closest freinds only like me when im high, and now that i have not been smoking as much, they tell me i seem different, and "cold". i dont think im a cold person, i just have days where i like to be alone.
im sorry i jump from topic to topic, but thats how i do things...i think it has somthing to do with my ADD.
ugh, i offered my rommate some of my food, because he hadnt eaten all day. so he makes the food, uses my plates, leaves the half eaten meatballs on MY desk. leaves the slim jim wrappers on my desk, and doesnt even clean the plate....i dont mind if he eats my stuff, but when he leave it on my desk? i dont liek it to much.....dont get me wrong, hes a decent roommate, but i guess im just a little agitated today.
tonite my friends r staying in and drinking...they asked if i wanted to drink with them, i said no, but i might end up going anyway. i havnt been drunk in a really long time, and as long as im not paying for it i see no harm in it. i might change my mind. lol although last time i was drunk up here, i ended up sleeping with one of my (female) freinds. i dont know if it made things awkward after that, i guess it kinda did, but everythings ok now. i dont like sleeping with people i dont like as more than a freind. i guess im liekstupid guy or somthing ..when i do somthing like that, it means i really have feelings for them, i dont know what i was thinking tht night....probabaly why i dont like alcohol.
yarg, and my CD drive on my computer stopped workingg, so now i cant put music from cd's onto my computer which is upsetting cause i have a bunch of awsom,e cd's. my ex girlfriend makes me the best mixes ever. they make me so happy....but i cant listen to them on my computer now....
i think im really stressed out right now, im doing bad in my classes.
im going home in a week or so, and Big D and the Kids table is playing on sunday. so im really excited for that. i havnt seen a ska show since ive been up here, and big D is one of my favorites.
im out <3
ok, so i found my harmonica, it wasnt in my friends room, my freind actually found it, she said she saw someone throw it outside, they had found it in the snow. im so happy. i guess it fell out of my pocket when i got throw into the snow.